Isolations Confession

I always find it frustrating and agitating when I always now that everything that happens to me is of Gods will. I know that everything happens for a reason, I know that God provide everything last thing I need to live and be his child. Yet Satan always find some backdoor that I seemed to overlook. Lord I know your always there for me, I know that I am your baby steadfast within locked arms. Why am I crying, why when you shh me and say everything is going to be alright, I continue to cry? Have I not learned that every step that I take, it's nothing without you? Have I not perceived with these I eyes that you are the almighty God of Heaven and earth?

I have perceived, I have learned. Why must every attempt to strive to live as your you beloved son, gets struck down with tempted anger and fury. I know that the only way to make it Lord, is to hold your hand. I know that the only way I can grow up is for you to raise me.

Its so hard lord, on the verge of tears I confess to you.

I can't make it alone!

I love you so much, your the only reason why I'm alive. Your the reason that I'm able to live in this world and of it. I can never express how much you love me and my bothers and sisters that live here in this earth. Lord I surrender my heart to you, do what will, let your will be done. The only request I'm could ever gather in pure humbleness, is to make better son. A better man, a better friend.

Jesus you know what its like to to be betrayed by someone close, to have the world turn its back on you. I have lost but one close to me and it's as if the worlds turn its back on me. The only reason I continue to get out of bed in the morning, is because my father went though but a mere morsel of the pain that I've experienced. He overcame it, and by his grace and love he provides I'll be able to overcome as he.

"Lord, let my mind and earthly body always know that I'm am loved, through the pain and feelings of isolation and betrayal, give me a blanket to keep me warm and a kiss on check. Remind me it will be okay and that this world will soon pass. I love you Jesus. AMEN"